sábado, 26 de setembro de 2020

to be in love vs. 'having' someone

 Being in love and having someone

not the same thing, doll
to open your legs and moan in the right way might be a ticket to having someone that will keep you warm
but to feel truly alive
the type of aliveness that does not depend on having enough potatoes in your belly
then you need to be in love at least once
I can see on your pallid face that you do not understand why
I will explain

to be in love is your ticket to truly become a part of the world
Is by being in love that you can transcend yourself
you can move on from this small, self-centered you
and become a part of the collective world
and don’t get me wrong
you do not need to be in love with one man or one person
you can be in love with trees
or with the world
or with a cause
or with a person
to be in love is to be so involved, so taken by someone or something else than yourself that for a moment you forget all the small questions related to the size of your sex, the right measurements of your body or your personal achievements
suddenly you cannot forget that there is so much more
there is this energy
this life
that dances inside of you
but is also a part of the world
and because you are in love you feel this urgency to let this energy exist
you need to move and let it see places and faces and possibilities
you expand
you bring good into the world without even thinking about it
to have someone on the other hand
is more like a useless exercise to try to avoid the existential fear of dying alone
it is a lie
we will all die alone
no matter what

and people are not to be possessed

quinta-feira, 24 de setembro de 2020

love in an unkwon language


it seems appropriate to approach love in a language that you don’t know

it is exactly that

every time

you are invited to this dance

a fun dance it seems like 

in the beginning

and you do not know where you are supposed to put your feet

or your heart, or your hair, or your sex, or your bank account

it is not that there are no directions at all

you could choose to follow the porn school

or what they teach in the so called women’s magazine

but if you decide to embrace it truly

without no cheating

then there is no preparation

you can never really know how you and the other will happen

the relation that you will draw together is a gift

most likely a light one in the beginning

beginnings of love have this tendency to be carried away by that strong animal smell

you just want to find a place to belong

later on, things tend to get more complicated

to find the balance between the overrated freedom and the equally overrated love is not easy

most people settle for the boring life

in which both love and freedom die

the living room is taking over by the big sofa and the big tv

and we become that stranger that no longer remembers that love is not supposed to be familiar

instead it is this foreigner, strange

 this strange thing that carry us from ourselves 

into the world